-The Divine Hours
I often wonder how I myself can cling to it when it feels like this world takes so much out of me on a daily basis.
Case in point: Yesterday, about 20 of us sat through an active shooter training session to try to prepare us for the unthinkable. I was sick to my stomach the entire time.
Add to that the lies people tell, the things they do that make no sense or are unethical and you've got yourself one stressed out, angry and confused person this evening.
Am I alone in feeling like I am sitting in the seat of the scoffer too often?
I thought us adults were supposed to have it all together, right? At least that's what we think and are lead to believe as children and even later as teenagers.
I certainly am not trying to boast. I am as far from perfect as they come. I know my flaws as well as anyone: too high-strung, judgmental, angers way too easily, can curse like a sailor, worrier - that's just to name a few.
It's just that deep down I delight in doing what is right. I often fall short, but I feel compelled to try to play by the "right" rules.
It’s not always easy. Quite the opposite is true. The older I get, the more I realize that doing the right thing is often the hardest thing to do.
But there are those who do it.
It was there in the $600 we collected for them.
Cliche I know, but how else do any of us learn to do the right thing? It takes effort, guts, values and a whole lot more.
So on this day when it felt like the wrongs kept piling up, like David I must remember:
"I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living."